Tony Lee Thomas: Music

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So there I was, barreling through my twenties, and feeling the angst of a fourteen year old hormone bomb over a woman I had been in love with for years. Suddenly, I realized I wasn't actually in love with her at all, but rather, the idea of her that I wanted her to be. More importantly, it made me consider the fact that nothing in this world can last forever, and we must therefore be prepared to let go of all the things we hold most dear. It is mortality that lends everything it's splendor, sensuality, and uniqueness.

Unrequited - a word with which some of us are all too familiar. Thought I'd write a song about it. Yep, another one.

In Love And War

Step
Step outside your mind
long enough to find I'm not waiting by your door
anymore.
I left
the past to rest behind;
letters sealed and signed
in the blood that I have given before.
Nothing's fair in love or war.

There is no way
you can trust in a clear sky,
but I would try to see the clouds through
because they know
'I love you' means good-bye.

Look
where the map says 'you are here'
lonesome, lost and still so near your indecision.
It muddy's up your vision of what is real.
It's not so easily defined.
You can wake up one day blind, and your perspective
subjective, and selective;
as if a will
to kill
could somehow let live.

There is no way
we can get there
like eagles fly, but I would try
just like the crows do,
because they know
'I love you' means good-bye.

Am I better off just to be alone?
Oh so much better of to be alone
with no one left to blame
for the things that never change.

If I could trust you
to see it all through
then I could die,
yeah I could die.
But we say, 'I love you'
and 'I love you' means good-bye.

'Cause nothing's fair in love or war,
no, nothing's fair in love or war.